So this week I will be 12 weeks on Thursday. And guess what this week started with??? I now feel NOTHING! Of course I am freaked out and worried. I am human and a woman after all. No more cravings, no sore ta-tas, no sick feeling, not as tired, not as hungry. What could be going on in there. Oh and did I mention that I still have no real belly to speak of...all I see down there is what I look like after Thanksgiving dinner! Come on Tapeworm, give me something.
In other related news..I have my NT scan and Blood work on Friday at 7AM. I cannot wait to see my little Tapeworm on TV again. I do hope everything is ok.
I am worrying my brain out. I am going to Babies R us at lunch and getting a doppler to see if I can hear the heartbeat. Yes I am freaking out that bad.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
Things to NOT say to Someone with Infertility
1. Just relax it will happen in God's time, when you least expect it, in due time, when the time is right, after you quit trying.
2. Have you tried taking your temperature?
3. Have you used those Pee sticks that tell you when to do it?
4. Don't worry about it, enjoy your time being a non-parent, believe me when it happens you will wish you didn't try to hurry so much.
5. Really you are going thru shots and stuff to have a baby? Why not just adopt?
6. I have this book you should read.
7. After you go thru all of this Dr. stuff you are just going to magically get pregnant.
8. I heard that if you have sex every other day you will get pregnant.
9. Did you eat pineapple? Drink Tea? Take vitamins? Take fertility vitamins and gook.
10. I heard those fertility shots jump start your reproductive system, you are going to have babies for years to come.
11. I didn't have to try, in fact all I did was get drunk and here is little one. Did you try getting drunk?
12. I hear that if you have sex with your pants open on the end of the bed...
13. Try it drunk and in the back seat of the car, that's how the teenagers do it.
14. Well maybe if you wouldn't have waited so long to try.
15. This fertility stuff, aren't you going to end up like Jon and Kate plus 8. I bet you get 6 in there.
16. My Grandmother says, my aunt says, the wartman says...do it on your head.
17. Did you try laying on your back with your legs in the air? Did you stand on your head for 30 mins afterwards.
18. So what's wrong with you?
19. After this you are just going to end up pregnant without even trying.
20. Try adopting, everyone gets pregnant after adopting.
Really there is so much more but these are the ones I can think of off the top of my head.
Infertility sucks. On all ends of the spectrum. Weather is a diagnosis of what condition you have or whether its unexplained infertility. Yes I know that people do IVF and then after having the baby magically end up pregnant with no help. Most of those people have unexplained infertility. I on the other hand, like so many other women, have it explained to me. I know what's wrong with me. The likely hood that this would have happened on my own is so out there I don't even think the Dr. can tell me what the odds are.
If someone around you is going thru this, be an ear, lend a shoulder to cry on, sympathize. I know its all we talk about, I know it consumes our lives...but we want this child more than anything and will do what it takes to get there. Its not that I can't carry a child, its that my body doesn't allow me to make one on my own. I thank God for the knowledge and expertise of our Doctors. I can't imagine being told I could never had a biological child of my own. And yes we would have adopted, but thankfully we were given this opportunity to have a blood relation. And you never know what our future holds for other children. No matter how they may come into our lives.
Other than that. I am feeling pretty good. Hungry more often but still eating small meals. Going home to cook tonight. I need real food and not food out to eat. Some crawfish tetrizzini, shrimp and tasso pasta with a cream sauce, Spaghetti and meatballs with red gravy and steak and potatoes with creamed spinach...that is the menu for the week. Nom nom nom says The TapeWorm!
2. Have you tried taking your temperature?
3. Have you used those Pee sticks that tell you when to do it?
4. Don't worry about it, enjoy your time being a non-parent, believe me when it happens you will wish you didn't try to hurry so much.
5. Really you are going thru shots and stuff to have a baby? Why not just adopt?
6. I have this book you should read.
7. After you go thru all of this Dr. stuff you are just going to magically get pregnant.
8. I heard that if you have sex every other day you will get pregnant.
9. Did you eat pineapple? Drink Tea? Take vitamins? Take fertility vitamins and gook.
10. I heard those fertility shots jump start your reproductive system, you are going to have babies for years to come.
11. I didn't have to try, in fact all I did was get drunk and here is little one. Did you try getting drunk?
12. I hear that if you have sex with your pants open on the end of the bed...
13. Try it drunk and in the back seat of the car, that's how the teenagers do it.
14. Well maybe if you wouldn't have waited so long to try.
15. This fertility stuff, aren't you going to end up like Jon and Kate plus 8. I bet you get 6 in there.
16. My Grandmother says, my aunt says, the wartman says...do it on your head.
17. Did you try laying on your back with your legs in the air? Did you stand on your head for 30 mins afterwards.
18. So what's wrong with you?
19. After this you are just going to end up pregnant without even trying.
20. Try adopting, everyone gets pregnant after adopting.
Really there is so much more but these are the ones I can think of off the top of my head.
Infertility sucks. On all ends of the spectrum. Weather is a diagnosis of what condition you have or whether its unexplained infertility. Yes I know that people do IVF and then after having the baby magically end up pregnant with no help. Most of those people have unexplained infertility. I on the other hand, like so many other women, have it explained to me. I know what's wrong with me. The likely hood that this would have happened on my own is so out there I don't even think the Dr. can tell me what the odds are.
If someone around you is going thru this, be an ear, lend a shoulder to cry on, sympathize. I know its all we talk about, I know it consumes our lives...but we want this child more than anything and will do what it takes to get there. Its not that I can't carry a child, its that my body doesn't allow me to make one on my own. I thank God for the knowledge and expertise of our Doctors. I can't imagine being told I could never had a biological child of my own. And yes we would have adopted, but thankfully we were given this opportunity to have a blood relation. And you never know what our future holds for other children. No matter how they may come into our lives.
Other than that. I am feeling pretty good. Hungry more often but still eating small meals. Going home to cook tonight. I need real food and not food out to eat. Some crawfish tetrizzini, shrimp and tasso pasta with a cream sauce, Spaghetti and meatballs with red gravy and steak and potatoes with creamed spinach...that is the menu for the week. Nom nom nom says The TapeWorm!
Thursday, August 19, 2010
I am having...
A tapeworm. Thats right. Forget a baby. I have a foreign body in my body! I eat all the time, I am sick if I eat, sick if I don't eat, I graze (mooo), and then I don't gain weight. Its a tapeworm I tell you. This is the nickname of the life form growing in my womb. Tapeworm.
Other than that here are my upcoming Dr. visits you know "due to my age" (fact: I am not OLD)
Sept 3 Perinatologist 1st trimester screen (screen for Downs Syndrome, Trisomy -21 and Trisomy -18) also screen for ITP (Ben's blood disorder he had) and Usher's syndrome (what Beth and Mark have) This will be blood work and ultrasound with Nuchal Translucency. Basically a super ultrasound with someone measuring babys fat cells and neck alignment along with brain formation.
Sept 8th Regular OB Height of uterus, weight and blood pressure, scheduling date for echocardiogram of my heart and baby's to test for how the pregangy is weighing on HOCM (what Granny has), Sugar Test for pre diabites and insulin resistance, Blood work. Also Ultrasound for baby size and dating of age and hearing the heartbeat.
I have heard its possible that the Perinatologist will tell us the sex of the baby...I've also heard that the cow jumped over the moon. So we shall see.
Work is wonky and nuts. We have double the amount of work right now and while good for the pocketbook not so great for the brain. It feels like mush.
Lastly...I am 10weeks pregnant today! 30 weeks to go! About 210 days. At least I am not an elephant. Twenty two months...you gotta be kidding.
Other than that here are my upcoming Dr. visits you know "due to my age" (fact: I am not OLD)
Sept 3 Perinatologist 1st trimester screen (screen for Downs Syndrome, Trisomy -21 and Trisomy -18) also screen for ITP (Ben's blood disorder he had) and Usher's syndrome (what Beth and Mark have) This will be blood work and ultrasound with Nuchal Translucency. Basically a super ultrasound with someone measuring babys fat cells and neck alignment along with brain formation.
Sept 8th Regular OB Height of uterus, weight and blood pressure, scheduling date for echocardiogram of my heart and baby's to test for how the pregangy is weighing on HOCM (what Granny has), Sugar Test for pre diabites and insulin resistance, Blood work. Also Ultrasound for baby size and dating of age and hearing the heartbeat.
I have heard its possible that the Perinatologist will tell us the sex of the baby...I've also heard that the cow jumped over the moon. So we shall see.
Work is wonky and nuts. We have double the amount of work right now and while good for the pocketbook not so great for the brain. It feels like mush.
Lastly...I am 10weeks pregnant today! 30 weeks to go! About 210 days. At least I am not an elephant. Twenty two months...you gotta be kidding.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Horrible blogger
Yes I've been MIA for two weeks. Ugh. But a lot has been going on. I was released from Dr Babymaker and sent onto regular OBGYN. She is really nice however we were totally spoiled by the expensive Dr who's office was always on time and getting to see the baby from week to week.
Everything is looking good. Baby heartbeat is 170bpm and measuring right on schedule. Waiting on results of updated blood work and other testing. But it all looks good. I find it strange the the Dr OB keeps talking about my age and what that means for this baby. Wait is she saying I am old?? Why yes she is and this makes this baby at risk for problems. So we have all this testing we have to go thru now. Ugh just when I thought being pregnant was enough to worry about. So up coming testing is lots more bloodwork for genenic diorders, deep ultra sounds for looks at neck and brain and other things, a test to look at my heart and the babys heart. Wow who knew there was so much?
The worse is waiting four weeks before seeing the Dr OB again! What??? I need a doppler ASAP! I need to hear the heartbeat so I know everything is ok. Can't I have an ultrasound machine at the house?
As for me. I'm fine. Somedays I feel a bit sick. I've puked a few times. I still dot eat alot at one time but I eat all day. I am always tired and alot more moody. I still worry everyday that this won't last, that I'll miscarry, tthat something will happen to the baby. But I am trying to continue to be positive and happy. The Mr. Doesn't want to get baby stuff until we are further along, I want to buy every baby thing I can find!
I am now 9 weeks and 2 days pregnant. And can't wait to hold this baby in my arms.
Oh and start on making baby no 2!!!
Everything is looking good. Baby heartbeat is 170bpm and measuring right on schedule. Waiting on results of updated blood work and other testing. But it all looks good. I find it strange the the Dr OB keeps talking about my age and what that means for this baby. Wait is she saying I am old?? Why yes she is and this makes this baby at risk for problems. So we have all this testing we have to go thru now. Ugh just when I thought being pregnant was enough to worry about. So up coming testing is lots more bloodwork for genenic diorders, deep ultra sounds for looks at neck and brain and other things, a test to look at my heart and the babys heart. Wow who knew there was so much?
The worse is waiting four weeks before seeing the Dr OB again! What??? I need a doppler ASAP! I need to hear the heartbeat so I know everything is ok. Can't I have an ultrasound machine at the house?
As for me. I'm fine. Somedays I feel a bit sick. I've puked a few times. I still dot eat alot at one time but I eat all day. I am always tired and alot more moody. I still worry everyday that this won't last, that I'll miscarry, tthat something will happen to the baby. But I am trying to continue to be positive and happy. The Mr. Doesn't want to get baby stuff until we are further along, I want to buy every baby thing I can find!
I am now 9 weeks and 2 days pregnant. And can't wait to hold this baby in my arms.
Oh and start on making baby no 2!!!
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