Heartbeat

I can't beleive I forgot to post this. Last wed we saw the baby! It's one! We saw the heartbeat! We got pics of our little praying mantis looking alien baby! We go back this Thur for a second sonogram and then hopefully will be released to a regular Dr!

Is it night sickness?

Seems for the last week or so come 2pmish I get exhausted. Ok I get I'm pregnant. Then I have to eat a little snack. Done. Then 5 pm I start to head home from work and I'm starving. Most of the time I can't even make it home, I have to stop and eat something. Ok no problem. Then I get home and this is where it gets not so good. Heartburn, indigestion, upset tummy and just a not so great feeling. Just plain icky!
So what do you call morning sickness that comes only at night???

Big Day number ummm...

Went to the Dr. at 9AM today. And I was so nervous I cried over an Onstar radio commerical and was shaking and felt like I was going to throw up. We got inside and I told the sonogram dude, I am really scared. My Mr was standing just waiting. And then first thing Sonogram Dude says is well there is only ONE. OH my gosh. Then he turns the screen and shows us the Doodlebug's heartbeat. It is beautiful and the tears just started flowing.
We are just so so so happy. A baby. Life living inside me. Its real now. Oh and I had Popeyes for lunch.
The heartbeat was a little slow the Dr. said no need for concern, the heartbeat did just start late last week and the baby could be sleeping.
We have now told everyone that we are expecting.
So here comes a miracle March 2011!!!

Is it time yet?

Just waiting on the sonogram to see if there really is a baby in the tummy. Yes yes I have all the positive tests. Yes I have some light symptoms. But I am just scared and nervous. I hear this is a very normal fear, to worry about miscarrying or for it to have all been a false positive.

And I also no longer care what the people at the dollar store think of me buying 5 pregnancy tests at a time. Nor do I care if people think I am nuts cause I take a test everyday to see it come up positive. Of course I think I am crazy. I'm use to feeling a little weird.

Is it time for this sonogram yet? I don't think I can wait any longer!!!

Its FRIDAY!

TGIF...wishing I was going to be able to sleep in this weekend, cause let me tell you..I am TIRED! But sadly I must go do some work with our Women's League. This year I am on the board, why oh why did i say yes? what was I thinking? Yes I lost my mind, and I still haven't found it. But I did and now I am the VP of the Jr Division. So I get to help get a bunch of teenage girls to do volunteer work. Yay me.
Tonight fun times, going to Paint with the ladies on the board. Whoo hoo! They get to drink wine and I get to watch them drink wine. I hope I get some good caffeine or something!
So the nausea went away, I am fine again. Oh come on.
I have this crazy thought that is constant that they baby isn't growing, or it died, or I am going to miscarry. I think about this all the time. I research it. I pee on sticks just to see if the line is still dark. And yet its all I think about. I am so worried. I know stop worrying, stop stressing. But I can't help it. I don't feel pregnant. Ugh.
I did get some really great shoes yesterday. Some topsiders, I miss the days when topsiders/deck shoes were cool and then they are again, so I bought some and I have to say I still love the way they feel and smell! Now Tretons make a comeback! I need some cool Checks in my life.
I do miss some of the wild trends in clothing that I as a late 80s early 90s girl grew up with. Yes it doesn't seem that long ago I was wearing bright hypercolor shirts and jean shorts with athletic short-tights underneath and thick long socks scrunched down with my keds! Whoo hoo. Pony to the side and bows in the hair. Ahh I miss those days. No I am not embarrassed. The only embarrassment my cousin knows. Bathing suit incident. I shall not say. But I don't get embarrassed easy anyway.
Happy Weekend y'all!

Is this Morning Sickness?

This weekend I had some bouts of upset tummy. They were random and sporadic but none the less it was nausea. But then it went away.
Last night when we got home I just had to eat cause I was shaking. And then I got nauseous. Then I was tired. I tried to do stuff around the house but couldn't finish, so I ended up in bed. It was gross. And I totally didn't think it was morning sickness and I am still not sure but...this morning after I ate nommy pancakes for breakfast I felt sick to the tummy again.
So maybe I am getting morning sickness after all! I sure hope that's what it is and I am not getting some random virus that is going around.

In this crazy life

This crazy whirlwind weekend literally kicked me down. I am exhausted but had so much fun. First we drove to Htown to see our Beautiful Friend Sarah marry her "everything" and we had such a good time at her wedding. We met some really great people and made some new friends. Mr did some dancing and we just had great fun.
Then we drove back home on Sunday morning, I was feeling a little off so I tried to sleep. Well I woke up with a start and felt sick to my stomach. But it went away! Then I was hungry. Napped on the couch a bit...I am laughing at myself, I took a day nap! Hahaha!
And then the icing on the cake (oh did I mention Sarah's grooms cake was delicious!) Mr and I went and saw Mr. Michael Buble last night. We had a great (Japanese) dinner with some new friends first, nom nom nom and then went to see Buble sing to us.
Michael Buble's song Everything was our 1st dance song at our wedding. So it felt like it had come full circle. Let me try to explain, don't know if it makes sense to anyone but me but here it go...
When Mr and I were getting married we choose Everything as our song. Its the perfect lyrics cause we do compliment each other in the way the song goes. So a few weeks before our wedding we had tickets to see Mr. Buble in concert in New Orleans, sadly my Mr had to leave town for work and happily I got to take one of my very best friends. She was happy and pregnant! Then a few weeks later we danced to Everything at our wedding. This weekend one of my dearest friends gets married and her wedding song is lo and behold Everything by Michael Buble! I love that we share this. Then I am pregnant. SO the first time I saw Michael Buble I was getting married, this time I was pregnant and with my husband. When he sang Everything we chair danced. It was such a wonderful night.
But now I am tired tired. I need one of those 12 hour naps I so love.
Ok off to wonderland folks.
Another day another dolla!

Life is a Highway

And I am going to ride it all weekend long. Off to the big Htown for a wedding this weekend. My wonderful awesome very missed partner in crime from my days as a Katrina Refugee, Sarah, is getting married to a wonderful man on Saturday night. I am so happy for her and cannot wait to see her walk the aisle. She will be a beautiful bride.
Other than that...nothing much on the pregnancy front. Just waiting for that ultrasound in t minus 12 days...this is going by way too slow, even with all the crazy work we have right now.
Today one of my "boys" at work was told, hey I'd like a root beer float, and went out and bought ice cream and root beer for the office. Dang it was good! I was so happy.
Still not really feeling pregnant though...but maybe wanting a root beer float was a sign?

This 1st Ultrasound/Sonogram Can't come quick enough

I am 5 weeks pregnant, and I don't feel a thing other than sore ta-tas, tiredness and occasional crampies in my back and lower ab section. What is going on? I am so scared of miscarriage or the baby not growing or having low levels of progesterone. I can't stop thinking about it. It just keeps running thru my mind and I keep taking pregnancy tests. Not that it means anything because I've researched it and any of those things could happen and the tests will still be positive. UGH! How am I going to make it 1 week and 4 more days before we see this little baby and its little heart beat? Or babies and heartbeats!
Come on in there, stick and grow stick and grow. You are driving your Momma NUTS!

Asian Food

I swear this baby is going to come out eating Asian food or looking Asian! Its all I want to eat. In the last week I've had PF Chang's twice, Thai and Chinese. Something weird is going on here. Why do I want this so bad. Now you must know I normally like Asian food, its one thing that I pick out the most to eat...but now I just want it. All the time. I could eat it for breakfast.

And then someone in the office got cookies delivered, and they were still hot. Oh my gosh. I am going to be 1500lbs soon.

Is it wrong of me?

To want some sort of pregnancy symptoms? I am assuming that I will eventually get some, but gosh darnit...I don't go to the Dr. for two weeks...I want to know I am pregnant other than peeing on sticks! Plus I think Mr. will kill me if I buy anymore pregnancy test strips. I just want to feel sickness or ta-ta enlargement (well I mean what girl doesn't), just something anything that will reassure me I am pregnant and the baby or babies are doing great in there little home.
Ok in a few weeks when I am complaining that I can't keep anything down or I am overly tired or something I must remember this post. For I am sure I will certainly be regretting asking for morning sickness one day soon. Or who knows, maybe I won't ever get it and I will constantly be checking if I am still pregnant or not.
Is it irrational of me to constantly think about the baby/ies? Think if they are ok, think if something bad is going to happen, if I can prevent anything from happening?
I can't concentrate at work either. I am too busy thinking about this whole pregnancy thing.
Ughh.

2nd Beta...

I am definitely PREGNANT! Drs office expecting my HCG (beta) number to be around 600 and its a 944! Wholly COW! I am just so happy. I am so thankful and so joyful.
For the funny story of the day...this morning I put on a pair of work pants. They fit snug but still they fit. After I ate lunch they don't even button. Now how does that happen? The baby cannot be growing that fast...I must have eaten too much and now I am having a chocolate shake. Can you say fatty fatty? So I guess these pants get packed away since I won't be wearing them for about a year!
Whoo hooo...we are Pregnant! I still can't believe it.

How we got the news and Our Grand Reacations

Since our family is so spread out I was asked to give how we found out the good news and our reactions. So here is the story...
After saying for days I was not going to pee on a stick, well it got the best of me and while Mr was out taking a walk with the most amazing Wondermutt, I ran to the local drug store and got some tests. He has no idea. I am so mean! I ran inside without saying hello (this was at like 7 at night) and went and did the digital HPT. Now here is the part that freaked me out. I barely had time to put the cap back on when it said PREGNANT. I walked fast the living room with a huge smile on my face and showed it to Mr. At this point Mr. being as skeptical as he is, said could that be right? Did the Dr say it was ok to do this? Could it be wrong? Is it the meds? So we researched it on the Wide world web and it looked promising, but we didn't get our hopes too far up cause it was 7dp5dt.We could say we were just happy to see the word pregnant for our first positive pregnancy test! I went into our bedroom where I had been keeping a gift for him since we first started trying. It was a small glass Penguin with a baby with the explanation once the Mom has the egg the Daddy Penguin keeps the egg till it hatches and keeps the baby in his legs on his feet. He really liked it and was reallly happy.
The next day Wednesday 8dp5dt we both went thru work all nervous and happy but scared just really not knowing what to feel. I ran home after work and took another test, this time one of the ones that just gives a plus or minus and bam...it was a big fast plus. Still cautiously optimistic but much happier.
Thursday 9dp5dt I went to the Dr office at 8:15AM and had my blood drawn. The nurse who I like at the office said, so did you do a HPT and I shook my head yes and she goes AND?? I said it was positive but we don't believe it. She is all "girl you are so pregnant, give me hug. I was waiting to hear this about y'all." I was all this is so awesome. Then at 3:45 she called to say, well hun the test doesn't lie, your beta looks great its 152 you are pregnant. Your estrogen looks good so stop on those meds, your progesterone looks good but we are going to keep you on for a while.
I ran to the conference room to call Mr. and said well we are pregnant and he goes "good first hurdle down". He is not one to show too much emotion. but the penguin now sits on his nightstand!
So thats it. Its been a long ride to get here and we are still very nervous about the bebe making it. So we are trying to just stay happy and positive and hope for the very best. At least one baby or two!

I want a Slurpee!

So this is day 1 of really being pregnant! I am so excited. I've looked back over the past week to see what real symptoms I've had and all I can say is weird crampiness, mood swings, damn my acne is all clear (WHAT?), and for the last two nights I've been really tired. Yesterday afternoon and today I keep getting weird very quick dizzy feelings. Like just a wave of being dizzy and bam its gone. Almost like did that just happen? Oh and did I mention the lower back ache. How the heck can a poppy seed (thats its size) make my back hurt. Maybe its not the baby, maybe its all that laying around I've been doing. Who knows.
Today we are 4w1d pregnant (4 weeks 1 day). Mr was like no your not you are like a week along. I had to explain how it goes from the day your egg is formed for the month. Its so confusing.
Monday is our next blood work test to make sure the beta (pregnancy hormone) is doing its magic and doubling in the right time. I feel the urge to keep peeing on HPTS (home pregnancy test) just to see it say you are knocked up!
Oh and I want a 7-11 Slurpee, but guess what, the darn machine was down at the 7-11 this morning. But I am having PF Chang's for lunch...put it in my belly!
I am listening to The Beatles radio at work on Itunes Radio...The Beatles always make me happy and make me think of my Daddy. Its a good day!
Come on stick baby/ies stick!

And the results are...

We are pregnant! Beta came in at 152! I am over the moon. Stick baby/babies, stick hard!!

Thank you Jesus!

The waiting begins...

I did it, I got the blood draw at 8:15AM this morning. Yet again my blood wasn't flowing so it took a while to get a full vile, damn vampires! Anyway...gotta wait for the lab to get the blood and test it, so it seems that it will be early evening before we hear something.
Still not sure if I will take the call at work or let them leave a message.
I saw this on a friend of mine's FaceBook and it rings true today...
♥ POSiTiVE THOUGHTS = POSiTiVE OUTCOMES!! ♥

Phantom Symptoms and I am a crazy person

Last few days felt pulls and cramps and weird back ache. Last night I craved Wing Stop and only ate half of it, then regretted eating it afterwards. Today, Thirsty and heartburn after breakfast and lunch...mild heartburn. Still have these weird pains in my sides and lower ab area. Also headaches and slight nausea here and there. All phantom symptoms...could be yes could be AF is about to rear her ugly head. Oh and my ta-tas are slightly sore...yet another AF sign too. Who knows what to think right now!

And yes I am going crazy with the anticipation of this blood test tomorrow. Will we pass? Did we finally hatch? Will we fail? Will this be it? Do we move on to adoption now? Do we try again? Do we just give up? Or are we pregnant? Ahhh. I can't concentrate on anything at work. I am sure I am doing a horrible job. I keep waiting for someone to tell me I am fired cause all I can think about is me, well not me but making babies and isn't that focus on me? My mind is racing with all these thoughts, I am reading blogs, reading chat sites, reading forums, trying to see if I have anything that will say yes you did it, you made a baby! Or two? But nothing is definite. Nothing points in this direction or that one.

So tomorrow for all you readers, whoever you may be...the test is at 8:30AM BUT, we will not have results right away...it will be much later in the afternoon and I am not ever sure if I will answer the phone. I may wait until I am off to check the message. This is only round one though, we have to make sure those beta numbers double, if I get a beta at all!

Why don't I want to eat...or rather why doesn't anything sound good to eat?

For the past two days I haven't been overly hungry. Like look I get it, I know I need to eat...those two little aliens are in there floating around or sticking around an I need to eat for them. But nothing sounds good. And I mean NOTHING. I even went as far as going to my favorite seafood joint and even then I only ate two stuffed shrimp and I was full. I didn't even eat all my fries. And get this..I got a cupcake last night, from my favorite cupcake store in da hood and I only ate like 1/4 of it. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? Ok now I want that cupcake and I am at work and its at home. Dangit!
So for lunch I had this taco place, one of the girls was nice enough to pick up some for me, and while I was daydreaming of Taco Tico, I just realized when I took the first bite, nothing compares to Taco Tico for fast food Mexican. There are many days when I daydream of food, these past few days I haven't...I think something is wrong with me.
Also I have been having horrible cramps and I am mean to people. I think this thing didn't work. God...please let this have worked! Please please please. I don't think I can take another let down. Another failure.
Two and a half more days. This waiting is killing me.

Fireworks

Spent the weekend searching out shopping joints and fireworks for my mom. It's been an adventure.
Nothing new to report, a late night headache and a lower backache. Ugh will I be pregnant? I feel nothing. Yes I know it's early but i'd just like to feel somethig! I am trying my best not to pee on any home pregnancy tests just to not get my hopes up or dashed before the blood test. Can I make it to Thursday???

That girls nuts

Nothing new on the home front. A few twings here and there, a little fat feeling, ta-ta's kinda stingy and sore, not overly hungry but still want to eat...basically no pregnancy symptoms. Of course it's early, hello read title, this girls nuts. I thought of peeing on a HPT today, but as if! Really nuto woman, it's like a big whopping 3 days. Ahh will I ever get thru this sane? Was I sane to start with? Am I complelty prgnant or just a little pregnant? Haha!
Finally got out the house today. Went and spent sometime with a friend and her two kids. Went to olive garden for lunch. Dreading going back to work on Tuesday.
That is all!

Dreams of random things

I didn't sleep well last night. I woke up with a dream that I had started bleeding, but really just had to pee. Weird my recent days have revolved around pee, does that say something about me? Anyway, then I feel back asleep after relieving myself and dreamed about Mr taking me to someone's house that I didn't know to fix a refriderator and there was a heavy set woman bring cold food down the stairs and glaring at me. The house was a mess. Then I remember being in a woman's house with a little boy who snuck in and her telling us about losing her little girl. THen I was in what was our house, but didn't look like the one we live in and looking for a basement cause bombs were coming. Next I was in this place that looked liked a greenhouse but huge like a city and I was a superhero that kinda looked like Iron Man and bombs came and I was then a cat that could survive the red coals on the ground.
Yep random dreams. I talked about it to Mr. when I woke up and he just laughed at me. But at least that way I kind of remember them. I just don't remember much more than that.
I woke up with another sinus headache, but its not so bad now. I think I might grind my teeth in my sleep and maybe its not a sinus headache. I will have to ask Dr. Dentist about that next time. I had a few cramps that felt like AF style cramps. And nothing much.
I do have to shout out to the Mr, Asisan brought home for dinner last night was the bomb. While I totally miss Canton's and good chinese resturants back home and have yet to find anything close to good here...at least we have Pei Wei and PF Changs. Not quite what I am craving but a good subsititue.
Off to laying on the sofa and catching up on daytime tv. Ok bedrest is not as much fun as I thought.